Thursday, June 3, 2010
Communications surface ...then retreats
My wife and I finally email on Tuesday, it seemed like it was better than our conversation over the weekend. Or the lack of communication over the weekend. However, at the the end of the conversation she tells me that she still doesn't want to talk to me on the phone, it makes her feel cloudy? I reply that I don't understand. She of course doesn't respond to me. I leave her alone and do not email her back. I am waiting for a response and now here it is Thursday and I still haven't heard from her. She is supposed to see a counselor tonight. I am hoping that she can get some better perspective. It is hard being patient. It's even harder to hold in the anger that I feel is so prevalent with this situation. I also am extremely uncomfortable with the uncertainty of what is going to happen when I get home. Where am I going to live? Will my wife and children be there with me? Will I have a vehicle? Will my kids ever see me again? The really sad part is I can't even picture my wife's face anymore.