I could sit here and air out all my dirty laundry but anyone who knows me well knows what is going on in my life and they will attest to the shitty tough time that I have been faced with. But, alas music has been my friend through all these tough times. Also, there are songs that I refuse to listen to because of the same situation. My monster likes the upbeat top 40 songs. I can enjoy them as well. But there is this song called Ayo. I refuse to listen to one note of that song. She enjoys it so much and I do not want to think of her enjoying anything. I mean she is the monster after all. Would you want your boogey man under bed to enjoy rocking out to Springsteen? I don't think so.
I have found solace in Eminem, especially the song 25 to life. Usually when I feel angry because the monster in my life is determined to make my life a living hell. Then recently I have stumbled upon a band called Mumford and sons. These guys tell it like it is but with out all the anger. Anyone who understands the different stages of loss or grief can understand that the different styles of music can really reflect what you are feeling at a particular time. I never understood how people can mindlessly listen to whatever is on the radio. I almost wonder if they are even self aware enough. Anyways. It's still warm in hell and I am still deployed in it. So until the next time pick a song and really listen to it and may you find substance out of it. -MER-
P.S.
Anyone want to help me come up with a name for the monster? I am kind of leaning towards Bitchzilla but it's just not enough.
I have found solace in Eminem, especially the song 25 to life. Usually when I feel angry because the monster in my life is determined to make my life a living hell. Then recently I have stumbled upon a band called Mumford and sons. These guys tell it like it is but with out all the anger. Anyone who understands the different stages of loss or grief can understand that the different styles of music can really reflect what you are feeling at a particular time. I never understood how people can mindlessly listen to whatever is on the radio. I almost wonder if they are even self aware enough. Anyways. It's still warm in hell and I am still deployed in it. So until the next time pick a song and really listen to it and may you find substance out of it. -MER-
P.S.
Anyone want to help me come up with a name for the monster? I am kind of leaning towards Bitchzilla but it's just not enough.
Just read all the posts on your blog....I think a lot of other guys in your situation could relate to this. Trying to think of a name -- the one you suggested IS too harsh.... hopefully I can come up with something.
ReplyDeleteHow about "The Strnger" after the Billy Joel song of the same name? The lyrics seem to fit:
ReplyDelete"I used to believe I was such a great romancer,
then I came home to a woman that I could not recognize.
When I pressed her for a reason,
she refused to even answer.
It was then I felt 'The Stranger'
kick me right between the eyes."